Is It Wrong To Look For a Serious Relationsip and Is there l
Is It Wrong To Look For a Serious Relationsip and Is there lI don�t think there is anything wrong with me physically or mentally. I cant say that I am the smartest or the cutest guy in the world but I am also not the ugliest and not the stupidest. My life has been somewhat of a screw up for the two and a half years. I meat some bad people did some bad things I cant say I regret what I did or that I wasted my time because I will be lying and everyone who knows me knows that I hate to lie. Doing the things I did and associating with the people I associated made me life smart, business smart, and most importantly to appreciate life. I know no the importance of true and unconditional love. I was stupid and arrogant a year and a half ago I had on opportunity but I passed it up because I though that sex is the most important thing in the world, but now I know that I could not have been more wrong since then I had many relationships and the all ended fast except for this one girl whom I liked very greatly but who slept around behind my back. I can�t say that she was a bitch or that I hate her because in some way it was my fault as well. I had an important paper do for this thing and thus I could not spend the necessary time with her. Before I did not know what I want but now I know what I want very clearly. What I want is not much it is not like I have great demands. All I want is to find one girl the girl I know she exists somewhere in this world who posses all the qualities that I would like. About a week ago I meat the girl whom I thought was the girl of my dreams. I am the type of guy who never falls in love later it either hits right away or it does not hit me at all. And when I saw and spoke to her it hit me it hit me right in my heart and soul. I was in love for the first time in my life I experienced what love is. It was an amazing feeling, I felt happy a feeling that I did not have for along time, I also felt alive after I stopped being with those �friends� as much as I used to I felt dead I felt like a peace of my soul had died right there. I wanted to devote my life to the business but I did not want to pay the leave consequences I was forced to leave because it was going against everything I stood for. And when I was with her it felt like that peace of my soul had come alive again and I felt like I can devote my whole life entirely to her I felt as though I can die for her. But after 4 days I realized that my feelings of lust and love where not mutual I realized that my feelings where not meat. This girl did not want a serious relationship all she wanted to do was have fun. I am a very tough guy at least a lot of people consider me to be one and I never ever express my emotions I ever show it anyway. I was always a guy, but after I heard her words a tear came rolling down my cheek. I was scared at that moment, I have never been scared of anything not even death but here I was scared, scared to be a lone. I know that after I leave school and after the business disappears from my life completely I will lose most of my now so called friends. I won�t have that special some one to hug and tell I love you too because who will want me when I am all washed up. All I want is an intelligent and understanding girl, Who is willing to give me a chance a chance at true love. Well if there is such a girl would she just post a little comment on my profile at http://www.whimit.com/profile.php?username=dannyc2499. Thank You Very Much For reading This!